you probably deserved that

breastfeeding is like having a migraine headache in your boobs constantly.
maybe that's just me.



every day i sit and stare at this person in wonder, my knee is the size of her head, my thigh is the size of her whole body! her foot is the size of brandon's thumb. but already she is growing so fast.

its crazy to think she will grow up to be a whole adult person. with developed feelings, opinions and preferences. i am in awe everyday as i see some of these things develop naturally, the way she responds to my and b's voices, and grandma's voice over ichat. the way she smiles and nuzzles, the way she wiggles, holds her hands- and favors her left hand. the way she likes her feet rubbed with lotion and becomes very still when brandon speaks from another room. now, (as of today at least) the way she hates being on her tummy and flips over. the way she tries to flip back onto her tummy to get closer to me while we lay on the ground. the way she lifts her head up to listen to brandon while she lays on my chest. it's just a miracle.

she's grown almost out of her newborn diapers- even though newborn clothes are the only thing she fits into and they are still baggy and big on her. i'm sort of bummed because everybody tells you to buy bigger stuff (and i guess they are right because as the baby grows she will stay in the biggger sizes for a longer amount of time) but now i feel like she cant wear all her cute things because they are HUGE on her! all im saying is i cant wait for 3-6 months. the cutest.

i am trying unsuccessfully to keep grace awake during a feeding.

oh well.
time for bed!
goodnight world.