June 2, 2011
bathtimez!
i know i posted a terrible sad screaming bath picture on facebook, but in truth the majority of the bathtime went splashingly!
she loved it.
she changes so much everyday, sometimes i look at her and i see exact features that i have but then much of the time i look at her and see everything from brandon, even in her mannerisms.
when she is sleeping she moves both her arms around and around ( which is why we have to swaddle her like a crazy person so that she wont wake herself up constantly) like she is conducting some unseen orchestra.
i am totally in love and completely obsessed with this person.
i swore i'd never be one of those people who kissed their baby on the mouth but people, she has the cutest little mouth in the whole world and after she eats she gets this grin on her face and i have to kiss her.
dont worry, i still wont be one of those parents who kisses full on the mouth when the child is like 12.
it's three in the morning! i need to go back to bed because i'll be up again before i know it to feed the girl.
today was really hard for me, i had a breakdown at around 9pm because i'm worried about her jaundice, my poor once small breasts are cracking and bleeding and engorged and i thought for a small time that i was going to die or explode and when my manual pump came back empty with blood all over the top i sort of gave up hope since the manual pump was my only friend today, grace keeps falling asleep during meals, i can't keep her awake for more than two minutes even if i strip her down to her shivering yellow skin! and after you have a baby, your stomach is stretched out, and mine is still stretched very big and it's very embarrassing. i mean, i knew my body wouldn't be the same after delivery, but i have friends who just had babies and they aren't this big. i know it will take time and patience, but i was really looking forward to wearing a giant box of new clothes that i got and with the exception of boyfriend jeans and a pair of cute sandals (thank you feet for not changing) the rest of the box will have to wait. unless i want to just wear the cardboard box, which i seriously considered.
so for now, lots of walks for me and baby g. and time.
and in the meantime, i will dote unconditionally on this little peanut.
and you all have to listen!
sorry.
love
j
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I know you are probably being flodded with advice. Jocelyn was bad at nursing. Terrible even. We only made it 5 months but part of that was due to me working. However, because she was so bad, she had bad jaundice and we had to do the whole stupid lights thing for a whole week. Imagine having to just stare at your newborn for a whole week. no holding. terrible. But better then handing her over to the hospital.
Anyway, it goes away, babies will eat. some way. if you want to nurse, keep at it. I have heard major success stories. If nursing is not for you two. It is ok. The best thing my mom told me was that feedings should be a happy time for both mother and baby. so do what you need to do to make it that way. either way she will continue to be beautiful and you will continue to love her!
oh and- I have a really really nice medela electric pump. is that weird to say you can use it? if you have a medela you can use the shield things you already have. so...no weirdness right? i just figure the pump can make a HUGE difference.
Ok, I don't think you look huge at all! You have such a nice thin body, stuff just got stretched a lot because there was nowhere else for that baby to go. :) The uterus has to go back to pear size from being basketball size, and all the surrounding abs and skin have to tighten back up. It's a slow process until you hit 6 weeks and get the go-ahead to really exercise. You are beautiful and you'll get your middle back in no time. You are so lucky that your feet didn't change. :)
Those first few weeks are sooooo hard :( hang in there! Leah had jaundice too, it makes you feel like you're a bad mother-but you're not!!!! Keep working on the breastfeeding-eat and poop is the remedy to bring that level down. I had plenty of breakdowns those first few weeks and haven't forgotten how stressful it is you will live through it I promise!
Hey sweetie! Good job Brandon on bathing little Grace, next time take off those socks from her hands:) Jacqueline at Babys R Us they have nipple guards to help cracked nipples while you nurse, they are wonderful. You just put them over your nipple each time you feed that way she sucks on the rubber cover instead of you. Call if you have any questions. love you Brooklynn
Falling asleep in the bath...a girl after my own heart. Good job on the first bathtimez, Dad.
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