3:11 am

after a rigorous bout of hiccups grace elaine has decided to let me hear her laugh.

it was just an AHA I GOT YOU laugh, like the kind where you chuckle after an ordeal.

like, "take THAT hiccups!
you'll never get the best of me." kind of laugh.

almost like a breath, a sigh of relief. but there was definitely a giggle in there.
so, besides the fact that i do get slap happy when i'm exhausted, i am really honestly sincerely overjoyed.

now she is squirming and grunting in her crib, i'm trying to help her help herself to sleep.

when i hold her she just cries because she knows i'm the food and she spat half of her ... second dinner (?) up already.

and i suspect hiccups aren't the only gas she has in her little body.
i'm so glad i can't remember being that small.
it must be very tough.