chrisandsarahmas!

dear blogworld,
sawwy i dissappeared for a few days (it feels like)

my brother and sister in law came to visit (chris and sarah, chrisandsarahmas in june)
and dote on little grace

and i've been doting on her blog whenever i have a spare minute i write down all the things she's been doing/ what we've been up to.

last night grace ate for two hours.
i'm not saying this isn't a comfort thing, but i was totally empty after two hours (and she wasn't just using me as a pacifier or anything, she was sucking and swallowing. for. two. hours.) and gave up and let her cry herself to sleep (that only took about five minutes but it was still the worst five minutes ever.)

i think her tummy is upset, i'm giving up milk for lent- early. (when is lent, how many years will i let go by before i find out?)

on a new note

holy hotness in utah! i can't believe that after living here so many years i am still shocked by how hot it gets. it's not just the normal hot either, it's the suck your bones dry in the desert and die hot.

b has school from eight in the morning until seven thirty at night today. that's right, seven thirty at night. i'm going to go crazy with boredom. slash grace is going to go crazy listening to me talk at her all day.

on a happy note
next week we are going up to star valley for the famous mud volleyball fourth of july showdown.
i love star valley and sort of hope we end up there, it is so gorgeous, the people are super friendly, and there is a ton of land, and water is free.

then mom is coming up to bring the heffe to efy and staying for a week of glorious blissfulness where i get fed, and she loves on me and grace all day.

then it's b and me's 2 year anniversary and then my birthday and then b's and then grace's baby blessing and then we go to california-home to stay in the guesthouse and be loved on all day for a week plus and live by the pool (most importantly- fit in a swimsuit) and eat glorious food, and go to the beach and play with grace and relax.

it's going to be a good summer people.

on a serious note.
celebrate the people you know and love. often. yesterday we tried to go to sacrament meeting (g and me) and she stared up into my face/ slept in my arms for most of the time, but i got the impression of how important it is to cherish her completely in this moment of her life. i was totally overwhelmed with love for this little girl, it's amazing to see how even though sometimes i have no idea what to do for her, on the other hand sometimes i am exactly what she needs. and it's a lovely thing to be needed by somebody. to have someone who smiles every time they see you, and can fall asleep in your arms. somebody who depends entirely on you to keep them safe, someone who trusts you. someone who will turn towards you if they hear your voice, and nuzzle into you when you hold them.

it's really a miracle to me.