a christmas miracle

peanut slept all night last night (or i slept really hard... probably the latter)

b woke me up this morning with his usual bouncing of the bed and pecking kisses to say take me to school take me to school

i was still in a dream about an old man from Tallahassee (where is that?) in a taxi that i was driving filled with my stuff, but it was a nice way to wake up

which proves the fact that i was asleeping! which is a christmas miracle.




i have discovered this sleep due to what i think is

1. last night we took dash for a walk around the whole neighborhood, the weather was so lovely we agreed that we dont want it to get too much warmer or any cooler. dash was good the whole time, but he caused quite a ruckus in the neighborhood dogs- holy cow, how do dogs know that another dog is just walking by? anyways, they were barking and howling at him... sheesh. i'm glad he doesn't ever really bark. when he does oh boy plug your ears but i usually just go ask him nicely to stop and he does.


when we got home my legs were burning and itching because they haven't seen blood since i last saw my feet which i cant remember when that was...

but i slept like a ROCK.
it was so beautiful.

b and me finally agreed that i think i do better when im pregnant- hormonally- which is unusual for most women, perhaps pregnancy is my perfect dose of hormones. for now.
as much as i wish i didn't have to, becuase i dont like medicine at all- after grace gets here i need to just go back on anti anxiety meds and suck it up or get serious therapy because i can't expect something i've had my whole life to just disappear beacause a beautiful baby girl is distracting me. in fact, i think that having a baby will most likely irritate whatever problems i already have- not solve them.

so, no more pretending i can do this alone or try to "control" an imbalance that i'll basically have my entire life- it's time to be an adult, accept what is and change what you can and if the extra hormones from meds will help then i'll take it!

and exercise.

last night was enchilada chicken sans tortillas and b said they were the best thing ive made in a while.

they are super easy, just take chicken breasts, smother em in mrs.dash's salt free chipotle lime seasoning, cook em on both sides, smother em again with green enchilada sauce and cheese and chiles and bake in the oven at 350 until cooked thoroughly and serve over warm rice. tadah!!!!

for dessert we ate funfetti cupcakes.



i ate three.

:] i love funfetti.