three chocolate cupcakes

so it's been several years since i had velvet cake. i worked at a bakery and we made them sometimes but- they looked pink and had rich frosting and i just avoided them for easier more delicious chocolate shaving covered other cakes that i knew exactly what i was gonna get with each bite.

until the roof. the roof is on the joseph fielding smith memorial building and it's a buffet style restaurant. even for dessert. which i love. on one of the dessert tables there was baby red velvet cupcakes with a light cream cheese frosting and a maraschino cherry on top? yeah, i ate four of them. quickly because we were leaving. they were amazing! and then i remembered why they were amazing. Velvet cake is half chocolate half vanilla. and purely delicious. however, i weaken my argument by admitting that if you put a maraschino cherry on top of a dead pigeon i would cry out with glee and eat it. One year my family went on a cruise to mexico and every night my waiter who's name was crayon- would put a bowl of maraschino cherries next to my plate. i'm not sure if it's the completely artificial coloring or the crunchy fructosy-ness of it or the stem that looks like it's been pickled but it's a delicacy of mine.

i lied about dash hating snow.
there is now four inches of white sticky stuff mushed on my steps and some happy neighborhood child has drawn hearts all over the car.
after chasing dash through the neighborhood in the freezing cold muttering about how if i fell i was going to burn him alive. i put him in the backyard where i watched him frolicking and (licking)eating as much snow as he could while leaving a big yellow streak behind him. the guy loves cold water.
too bad he doesn't like to swim. too bad he doesn't know what come here means. which is mostly admittedly my fault since i speak english and he doesn't.

Even though it is cold, there is something special about going outside in the dark with all the white stuff (if you can be warm). It's the only weather that makes you feel completely alone in a beautiful place but also connected to everyone else in a peaceful and non-intruding way. You are the perfect spectator for beauty. You can smell the wood that's just been cut burning in the houses around you bright and warm. I like that.

I also may or may not have left out a cupcake for dash to eat because i want him to die sometimes. (i didn't) I worry he's going to eat our child. He's developed a really bad jumping habit. Among a few others. I guess I can't complain much since eating four cupcakes is sort of developing a bad habit. And don't tell my sister in law sarah, but I've also decided that I like paper cupcake liners better than tinfoil ones.

note to self: if you decide to buy hanes thermals again, please don't buy large bottoms because, apparently your bottom is not large. also, if you decide to purchase a large thermal top DO because apparently you are a large top. (for an A cup?) (confusion)

fourth cupcake and then bed.

love you all. still deciding weather (hah) or not to move to utah for winter semester. still going to new york for thanksgiving. still happy to be alive and it's about time i shared with some people (the three that read my blog)some exciting news:



as if the "I'm dying because I cant eat and throw up all the time" blogging didn't totally blow that one huh? you already knew didn't you! well, I have to admit. I love this little heartbeat fish shaped baby already more than maraschino cherries. by a long shot. and I want to tell everyone! baby peanut is on the way, and look at her huge head! (it's going to be a she) (I think)