dont be a hard rock when you really are a gem baby giiiirrrlll

today grace went in for her two month checkup, time is flying by!

it was really tough, and i made brandon come so he could hold her because i'm a big baby myself and i hate shots and i knew i couldn't do it alone. the crazy part is i fed her right before we left and in the middle of her checkup the doctor looked up at me after listening to her tummy and said "she's hungry- you can feed her after the shots" i asked him how much i should be feeding her (since we've had to start supplementing because i wasn't producing enough breast milk which was really unfortunate because i wanted/stillwant to only breastfeed as long as i can) and he said four oz was the most we should do per feeding and i had just watched her suck down four oz without breathing before we got there!

this baby likes her food.

when we got home she started screaming like ive never heard before- it was such a sad cry like she was in real pain (i'm sort of glad that i'd never heard it before because that meant she'd never been in pain before) it was AWFUL! i wanted to rip my brain out. or put on ear muffs. or use my brain as ear muffs. it's true when people say that you feel your child's pain more than your own.

it's amazing.

and terrible.

i'd hate to be the person who has to give shots to screaming sad babies all day! i guess the payoff is the smiles later...?

so we went home, i gave grace a bath and she glared through the whole thing and then clung to my shirt for the rest of the afternoon like "how dare you do this to me!" "dont you ever think of doing this ever again!" it was so sad! she has a little fever and everytime i moved holding her or nursing she would start crying again. the doctor said to rub her shots to help ease the soreness and i had to have b do it because i couldn't again.

but now we are all ready for sleep and grace is out, poor honey.

tomorrow we leave for AZ for the sander's family reunion! i am very excited to meet that side!

i am less excited to drive the 11 hours to do it, but i feel like it's really important right now.

next week my family is coming for grace's blessing and that is going to be awesome. i wish chris and sarahmas could come too but they are here in spirit and hearties. plus the week after we are going to home! san diego and will hopefully play with them there.


photos are being tooked! i just have to find the time and hands to do it...
summer is out of control.