How It Ends

Its been a while. Its been longer than a while. The date glares back at me and so I look outside. I realized something this week, I've been looking for the wrong thing for so long. I keep expecting so much more from people than they could ever want to give. I was in a place where I put so much imaginative affinity into a relationship that I forgot that I was in a relationship at all. And now, I don't need to be in any of them. Because I was never there to begin with. Michele I love you and I am as lost as you are. For you, whoever you are and wherever you are in your life- there is love for you, and it is closer than you think.

my fights and struggles seem like slopes to me now. I hear songs that tell me about my life

they communicate clearly what I cannot write.

so this is for you as much as it is for me.

" Hold your grandmother's bible to your breast

gonna put it to the test you wanted it to be blest.

and in your heart you know it to be true- you know what you've got to do, they all depend on you.

and you already know yeah you already know

how this will end.

There is no escape from the slave catcher's songs

for all of the loved ones gone

forever is not so long.

and in your soul they poked a million holes

but you never let them show

come on it's time to go

and you already know

yeah you already know

how this will end. now you've seen this face

and you know that there's a place

in the sun for all that you've done

for you and your children

no longer shall you need

you always wanted to believe

just ask and

you'll recieve.

beyond your wildest dreams

and you

already know

yeah you already know

how

this

will

end."

Devotchka

How It Ends